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Maisarah. 19 December 91. Hi♥
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Thursday, November 26, 2009, 3:23 AM
i actually can't remember much. but suddenly, everything just came back. So clearly. All at once.I remember sitting on my grandfather's kain so comfortably. Like sitting on a swing.
I remember running around under the void deck playing little red indian house.
I remember sleeping on this huge circular couch at our old house.
I remember how the kitchen looks like.
I remember the walls. Scribbles of words/sentences written on the walls. Not a wall missed.
I remember trying to figure out what's going on.
I remember asking what's all those.
I remember asking who wrote it. The father.
Then,
Suddenly all of us at the aunt's place.
I remember standing at the door.
I remember staring at the door infront of aunts house. Which used to be my house.
I remember asking why are we here and not there.
I remember seeing police now and then.
I remember hiding each time i see them walking to 'my house'.
I remember 4 of us. then theres 3. then theres 4. then there's 2.
I remember having chicken pox, with dots of cream all over me.
I remember being forced to go to the other side of the family every weekend.
I remember hating it so much.
I remember crying so much.
I remember forcing myself to sleep. So that they wont disturb me.
I remember hugging the bed's pole. Not wanting to let it go.
I remember my mum persuading me to go.
I remember her telling the rest to go without me.
I remember he called and somehow they managed to carry me out of the house.
I remember crying so so badly.
I remember throwing crazy tantrums whenever im at the other side.
I remember them telling me thousands of different kind of stories.
I remember them bad mouthing each other.
I was such a confused kid. Not knowing who to trust/believe.
I remember counting 1 dollar coins.
I remember eating really nice maggie mee.
I remember crying all night.
I remember feeling so scared. whenever im there.
I remember crying for my mum whenever im there.
I remember playing sega saturn.
Back home. (aunts place)
I remember there's so many of us in one house. My cousins.
I remember us laughing happily over anything. Like when one started laughing, the rest will all laugh.
I remember my grandmother sending me to school. (K1, K2)
I remember drinking teh from my barney bottle.
I remember playing masak2 with shahedah. with real food on the plates. hehe.
I remember i fell into a longkang! HAHA.
I remember my alien workshop wallet.
I remember losing it. and cried non stop.
I remember going fishing with the father and brothers. overnight.
I remember sleeping on my brother's lap. Haha. i used to be so small.
I remember being left in the taxi alone to sleep while the rest out there fishing.
I remember feeling really scared being left alone.
I remember moving into a new home. Currently staying at now.
I remember there's only me mum and 3rd brother and grandmother. only 4 of us.
I remember how excited me and 3rd brother was. Running around. lying down on a brand new bed. Switching on the aircon.
and suddenly...i dont feel like going on anymore. I feel so tired now. My mind's tired. My eye's tired.
Thanks for reading.
Whatever it is. I love my mum my brothers my aunts my uncles my cousins and all my friends. heh heh.